In Chittaranjan I spent my childhood and school years, and my sense perceptions were built ground up there. Most of activities were my creations without precedence and some were with my friends. I used to be collector. My collections were stones of all kinds from many days of lonely hunting in the hills and river beds in the surrounding landscape.
Chittaranjan had a hill top water reservoir and a nearby water filtering unit. Top of the hill had a rotating light that can be noticed many miles away.
It is my concept of Vivek churamoni - I am referring to the essay by Adi Shankaracharya. That shining existence in my heart that creates a moment that I see and impossible to not see it.
My world has been constructed piece by piece over 64 years or even before, while I was conceived in my mother's womb. What I learnt till now can't be changed hereafter.
It is impossible to change my world and me. I can't protect myself and prevent no perception. I can change none either with my words actions or thoughts. I can't prevent thinking nor doing. I am automaton.
'Timeless' is the only author of my world. I have no option but live within its supply of events especially written for me however scanty and defective. I had no choice then and have no choice now. As the days pass I shall personally see my cancer spread.
I can not predict.
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