What is troubling me

White beam light at the center of me exposes all troubling experiences

my inability to look at divine experience as divine and i m in trouble

i m in the mosquito land infested with mosquito

i can't kill them all

they would smell me

as i did once in badrinath

even when he is total silent i hunted him out

so did another old man

and disturbed him in his work

so much so he faced all of us three with one question

whom to appeal for bad deed of nature

famine quake avalanche flood storm and fire

disease old age poverty and death

how do i protect myself

who should i complain if bearable

the beam of light at my center has exposed me

it shall annihilate me and the shadow i cast

no one wind water fire ... disease age death possession can't obstruct this light and cast any shadow

i view all all and all no exception

i m not there I must view that