all moments here after are worse beyond my imagination and without end

This is the saddest moment of my life

I saved a lot till this moment
my relations
my many proud and prized moments
many words from many acquittances
many memories
many possessions
my loving body
many favorites
many intelligent deeds
and my pride

But

I can't save even
a single moment
a single cent
a single cell
an intelligent deed
a single memory

for my next moment

I have no ability to create next moment

I have no options but leave all now
I have  no safe - no arc to get to next moment

in my next moment is totally bereft of me and all my love
I have only them - I hate and can't bear

all moments here after are worse beyond my imagination and without end