million words

I have written several million words in 40 plus years only to calm my boiling minds from two successive rejections.

I could believe in nothing that included my own body and the sun rising in the east.

I was mount Fuji eruptions every so often.

I am still erupting is there any chance that I shall be silent in near future.

I wish I am a dead volcano.

I have nothing to give by way of words.

I unite the sky earth people and me all themselves  - peaceful and quiet and not noisy and colliding.

I can't condone two persons in my life - Madhu and Chhordi. There is another pair Bhakt masi and Jagu who were responsible for early demise of Dada.

I think it is my final list of persons I do not condone - their selfishness caused early death of my three brothers.

Ma always took care to keep her children away from potentially dangerous persons..

I wont blame any but blame inability to myself.