what is next my next moment?

I need to answer this question.

I am trying to predict my next moment with respect to all my memories of moments that can be very faulty.

With respect to current moment that is real and true.

Prediction is based my perceived intelligence on my prediction capability on my finance longevity of me and those I relate to.

My heart loses a number of beats - considering my life and life of others and my financial situation.

Suppose they are worse and that is predictably so - my ability to create interest in me is limited to attract money; similarly my ability to increase my life expectancy?

All these as per my belief.

I don't know what is my future tomorrow but its expectation ruins my today.

Further I have no ability to create tomorrow while I have every ability to destroy my today in order to manufacture tomorrow out of today.

At this point 'moment' comes into picture because today as such is perception of today at this very moment.

While today is any thing but this moment.

This moment is true that is unchangeable.

While is an account of events perceived by me echoing my mind.

It is my disability to create my next moment and thereby predict the same.

However I spoil this moment predicting my next moment thinking that is for sure unpredictable.

Why I am bothered about next moment that I am incapable of making it?

I am suffering from very bad moment that is resonating without stop in this very moment.

This moment is created thus - I have no option but suffer.

As I am doing now.

I have no ability to create any moment good or bad.

I am dried up leaf in between two pages of a book many zillion pages.

talks apart

I realize that

I am incapable of making one moment however bad

I am incapable of changing this moment however bad

I have no choice but bear this moment.