there is none or nothing worse than me

I had to junk about fifty blogs of mine. Reason they were intellectual and written for some possible audience.

This undermines the goal of achieving innocence and remain innocent.

All that I see and call experience - so called hunger for knowledge must be replaced as hunger for innocence.

I must never try to meet expectations of others  and there is no reason for the same.

I am looking to be slave of one or many.

I must knowingly embrace the life of innocent where I am mistaken in every moment of my life.

it is freedom from knowledge and experience.

It is freedom from from learning.

It is freedom from reaction.

It is freedom from defending me.

It is freedom from my survival.

I have to be without me by action - there is nothing of me that needs defense my thinking my doing my saying.

I have a model - I am a just born baby literally.

But this wont help me since it about myself.

I can't think I know; even if I do, I must not act on my presumption; even if I think I know who or what I am, I can't act on my belief; even if I think I know what one or many think about me, I can't act on my belief.

I truly know that I don't know and there is no way to practice this knowledge show my knowledge and act on my knowledge without maintaining silence and no action even when I am fired cheated insulted or attacked by human animal or machine.

I DO NOT KNOW.

THIS HAS TO BE A VOW TO MYSELF WITH ACTION AND DEMONSTRATION TO MYSELF WITH OUT WORDS THOUGHTS MOVEMENT EXPECTATION AND NO FUTURE PLAN OF ACTION.AT THIS VERY MOMENT.

I DON'T KNOW and I must never lie - about me or anyone or anything or my beliefs - my beliefs are 110% lie

I must not hide and must not show must not talk

there is no reason to talk

with all those writing above if I am claiming that I have some ability ...............

however it is false claim..............

I am without any ability worse than single cellular amoeba ....

I can't think say do write or move a single muscle or blow a speck of microscopic dust - 

i am nothing worse than any - subatomic particle

i have no existence

i can't even presume ..............

if I expect again it is not me 

i m incapable of such great deed

i can't even b diseased

i m not allowed